beautiful reality

today was beautiful reality. no one says that now-a-days you know? whenever people say reality, they make sure they mention the hard stuff. i know i always do that. but sheesh, reality is beautiful too! i've noticed it in the relationships built here with the other volunteers, in the small encounters with the Indian people, with the random verses painted on the roadside walls here in Chennai...

hm i'm beginning to grasp what God's kingdom here on earth might be like. it is not ignorant bliss. it is not fitting into a certain mold in order to gain heavenly credit. it is not guilt-driven love. it might be something beyond human endeavor...a place where an outpouring of love originates and fills those who are willing to receive it...transforming those people in the midst of the hard and beautiful reality of life on earth, so that they can truly say they've tasted true life.

and dang it, i don't like run-on sentences that sound really lofty like the one i just wrote. but then rereading it slowly, it kind of makes sense. it makes sense because where it all starts, isn't me, but from the Source, God himself. and...it's still lofty cuz i have much to learn. anyway, had to write that down before i forgot.

for all of you at home...thank you so much for those who've shot me random emails, encouraged me through gchats while we talk at opposite hours of the day, and esp those who i know are praying. you have no idea how much it means to me! :) until next time i wander over to this internet cafe...!